To The Boy I Never Loved

I hope you are doing well; it’s been a while since we last spoke, hasn’t it? I hope you’ve come out of your comfort zone and talked to more people, like I always encouraged you to. I hope you have tasted success in your life that you always craved for. And love: I hope you have found the love that you wanted so much, the love that you expected from me so badly but I could not give you.

I never understood if it was you who couldn’t convince me enough or if it were me who was not willing to see that perception. In my eyes, we were good friends, the kind of friends who knew each other very well and would listen through any kind of problems. I’m not sure when it was that you saw this friendship as something else, but sadly you did. It’s not wrong, of course; I’m glad you got to have this experience. I’m just sorry it wasn’t with someone who reciprocated your feelings. I must have hurt you a lot unintentionally and I’m truly sorry for that. I truly hope you fall for someone who loves you with the same passion, the same intensity, and the same depth this time. I hope you are able to find someone to do all those things together that you wanted to do; you deserve to have that kind of love.

Maybe if you had understood the power of friendship just as much, we would have still been good friends and I’d be telling you this directly instead of this letter. Then again, maybe, it would be wrong of me to make you stay in that friendship despite the hurt I could see that it was causing you.

Good luck for whatever you may be doing.

Sincerely,

The Girl who was never yours to begin with

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